Don’t keep doing something for a phantom obligation. If it doesn’t make you happy and doesn’t impact your live positively. Stop. Cut ties. The cleansing and catharsis is delightful. Don’t bother trying to make someone love you because you just want to be loved. Who gives a shit if someone doesn’t like you? There are 7 billion (almost, probably) other people in this world and I’m pretty sure you’ll find a few that will. The few that either don’t like you or can’t take the time to maintain a friendship no longer matter. What use is it to feel hurt over the same shitty situation? It’s done. Move on. Let go of the past. Sometimes you think dealing with or approaching past situations or events will help bring you closure, but believe me, it doesn’t. It just drags up past hurt and feelings and generally does more harm than good. Forgive the wrongs people have done to you and move on. By all means don’t forget, lest it happens a time again, but don’t hold on to the hurt. We’re only human. We can’t expect anymore of others than we can of ourself.
It’s time to rise from the ashes.